This open end here
This consistent movement
No stop no rest no time
Gotta keep going
Every passing moment
Are moments that move
Nothing stands still
There’s nothing to hold onto
With all the baggage we carry
Follows great weight
Choose your burden’s wisely
They shape your mind state
Know this currents movement
Make no mistake
Don’t confuse or fight against it
You haven’t the time too waste
There’s nothing to loose
If you choose not to
There’s everything to choose
But only if you want to

I don’t think that writers or painters or filmmakers function because they have something they particularly want to say. They have something that they feel. And they like the art form; they like words, or the smell of paint, or celluloid and photographic images and working with actors. I don’t think that any genuine artist has ever been oriented by some didactic point of view, even if he thought he was.

Whats next
I’ll take a rest
Feel my chest
Heavy breathing
Talks deceiving
Staring at the ceiling
Step out side
Clear my mind
See walls there
It isn’t fair
Feel the trees
Patterns on leaves
Fractals in my eyes
Strange trails in the sky’s
A dirty mess
My personal test
A needed break
I wish to take
There’s nowhere to go
This is how it flows
It’s human nature
Some things get clearer
Or so I’m told
It’s growing old
And I am too
How about you?

Sitting here thinking of what I’d like to do
Oh how I’d love to get close to you
But who are you and where will I find
That sweet smile and those beautiful eyes
Sometime in someway you will come to me
Perhaps then we can find out what could be
Where are you, where can I find two
Where am I, where can I find you
Mabye the time won’t come
Mabye it will
All I know is that I’m looking
While I’m up here on this light
Spinning, swinging, learning
Waiting, but moving, living
It’s constantly surprising
Inspiring

My current work is starting to take a nice direction. Playing around with allot of stuff, making shit look bad and good. I hope to have something out or close to finished this weekend, if I’m up to it. haven’t done much to it until last week. Not fun waiting on parts. But I’ve spent hours and hours with my head phones on just listening to pandora. I haven’t encountered anything in a long time that i’ve loved this much. It’s so well done that I get lost in it and sink back into this other world listening to my own stations. My imagination frees up and I get the strongest sense of inspiration. After having listened for the many hours on end I came out feeling refreshed, restored, and I ended up just locking into illustrator & Maya, letting my mind do what it will.

There are times where everything just aligns, like some sort of connection. Could be something about the snow, or the river, or the way I can make light change and distort color with my eyes. There are just some things that are so beautiful, so real, and it’s as if I know for sure, I just know.

Confidence, complete peace and confidence with everything in life and the world around me. Nothing matters, no worries, like a silence, or pause in the conflict and then something switches suddenly and I find my self in a world, one that is pain, confused, frightening. It’s so disorienting and I sometimes forget, not being able to keep the calm and not being able to keep that confidence, that peace of mind.

I just don’t know how to control it, it leaves me unmotivated, it leaves me confused, it leaves me insecure.

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Is this all in my head? then whats it really like? what will the answers be like?

I here beautiful music, and see beautiful art, it inspires me, and fills me with motivation, but then again I’m still not sure.

Will I ever be?

Will I think this way tomorrow?

I dunno, and I’m not sure what I have to do, I don’t wanna think about it, but I do.

Welcome to the beginning of this page. This is a starting point from which many of my projects and doings will begin. With many of these things already completed (aside from a few little problems here and there) new additions will be arriving shortly. With in the week the menu will turn on and i’ll begin what ever this is going to be. Enjoy.